It's been a year, but not a year of purposeful neglect, just a year of wandering around in my mind in a perpetual funk. Today was a shitty day, but for no good reason. I mean I worked yesterday. When I work on Saturdays, my Sundays become my lazy day Saturdays and then I do dumb shit and get depressed: like look up people I used to know and realize life is just flying around me and I'm stagnating. It sucks. I have 8 classes, then I have a Bachelor's degree in English. I want to finish, but ran out of money. I write short stories, there's a small child in me that really wants to finish and send it off to my editor, but alas, the bigger kid is the bully and nothing gets done.
I had a headache today. I think it's caffiene withdrawl. So, I made coffee and that wasn't it. Started eating some chicken I fried, yummy, headache starts to subside. ooh la la..stopped eating headache is back. I just don't know how them skinny chicks do it. I mean I love food and don't want to get fat but this shit is ridiculous.
Okay, time to eat. Maybe I'll get motivated but outside of writing, today was a no bueno day. I watched two episodes of Criminal Minds, I watched Cowboys and Aliens (you ever watch a movie and think, "What in the holy hell was that?" yeah, glad I did not buy this one), I watched Mulan II (or rather she did, I slept.) then, I watched "The Amazing Spiderman" with giraffe neck Andrew Garfield. Man, that felt like a three day epic. Nay, it felt like watching all the Lord of the Rings back to back to back. I thought it was four hours. That's how it felt. Now, I know why it's on sale.
Having some peeps over for Xmas Eve but it's just not the same without my other kids nor my grandparents. It's just another sad day, but I've got to get it together for my littlest one, who will recieve the entire Barbie village.